This morning I sat on the front porch in my rocking chair looking at the beauty all around me. Yesterday's ice storm left the trees sparkling in the morning sunshine. The sound of crackling ice as the branches moved gently in the breeze made me think about how little time I actually spend looking and listening to all that's around me. Although my world seems pretty limited right now, I'm realizing that it's not really, it's just a different perspective than I'm used to.
Today marks three weeks since my silly accident which has me laid up and dependent upon my husband, kids and awesome friends. Who knew one could break four bones in one foot, fracture a knee, mess up both the ACL and MCL, and sprain the other ankle all from a standing fall. Turns out I have brittle bones – a lovely side effect from chemotherapy four years ago.
One would think I would be really mad, okay, I was at first, but only for a little while. Instead I realized that my fall was a blessing in disguise for several reasons. First of all, I am a very active person and given that I was supposed to be skiing in Stowe two weeks ago, I can't help but wonder how much worse a fall on the slopes would've been. Now that could've been really ugly. Instead, a simple fall in the bathroom... yes, the bathroom - which is the most dangerous room in the house - enlightened me to a very serious condition. I consider this a blessing because now that I know, I have begun working with my favorite herbalist, Kenyon Keily and my Functional M.D., Dr. Sarika Arora, to create a wonderful plan to rebuild my bone density (naturally of course!). It will take a couple of years to increase my bone density to safe, pre-chemo levels, but knowledge is power and I like knowing that I'm able to take control of this issue and remedy it without expensive injections of synthetic materials.
So that's the first blessing - pretty awesome stuff. The second blessing is what all this forced time off my feet has done for me... the ADHD girl who can't sit still! This last three weeks has been an incredible opportunity to just be with myself and do lots of soul searching. As a busy mother of five, there's not a lot of "me time" in my life and this last three weeks has been a gift of time to just think and ponder. Since my office is downstairs and I can't navigate stairs... I've given myself this time as a vacation from work-related responsibilities i.e. end of year accounting, inventory and boring business stuff that I really dislike anyway.
I've come to the realization that I'm feeling very burnt out and ineffective, struggling to juggle too many things and accomplishing little. I've been an integrative health coach for more than 20 years and have spent the last few years building a for-profit business and a non-profit business. Too much, too busy and I'm not happy. I've decided to streamline my life a bit, get back to what makes me happy. I've decided to limit my coaching practice to just a couple of clients at a time and to focus more on the non-profit business, Pay it Forward Club.org, which is something that gives me great joy. I've also decided to get back to writing. So I'm going to use this blog space as a way to flex my creative muscles and expand my writing... who knows where it might lead.
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