I woke up tired, sore and grumpy this morning. My deepest apologies to anyone who has had the displeasure of dealing with me today. Fortunately, I’ve not yet been released, physically, upon unknowing clerks, other drivers and the rest of the world. Only those who venture past the porch are subject to the rants of my frustration and boredom.
After a little venting to friends… hopefully they're all are still my friends… I hobbled out to the porch where I reflected on my plight and came to the bold conclusion that as much as it sucks buckets to be laid up, unable to drive, unable to prepare even the simplest of meals without it being a complete pain in the foot (ha ha ha), and completely dependent on your husband, kids and friends… I realized that it could always be worse. I pulled myself up by my knee brace and hobbled back into the house.
Determined to figure out a way to turn my mood around, I hopped around the house on my crutches until my poor shoulder complained loudly and promptly gave out. Fortunately, I was in my bedroom and landed on the folding chair in the corner of my room. I honestly don’t remember which awesome member of my family was responsible for putting the chair there, but I was grateful for it today. Each member of our home has done so much, to help me out; things like carrying my lunch plate or bowl of soup to the table so I can sit to eat. I often just eat at the stove leaning on one foot as it’s easier than trying to get my food to the table without feeding it to the ever-present and ever-hungry, four-legged members of the family.
I came down pretty hard into the folding chair and was even more grateful that it was the padded kind and not plain metal. I spent a few minutes holding my shoulder and cursing my own stupidity. Wishing for more upper body strength to manage my crutches better, but knowing it’s futile. I have calves of steel and arms of cotton fluff. Sitting there, looking around the room, my eyes came to rest on my favorite picture; it’s a picture of my happy place. Our pond and cabin in the mountains. Just looking at the photo calmed me. I stopped holding my shoulder and began to gently massage it. The pain started to ease and I noticed my breathing had slowed and become deeper. I miss yoga. I miss my mountain pose, my downward facing dogs, I miss lying on the floor and meditating and I miss feeling my bare feet connect with the ground.
So now my mood has gone from just plain ornery to full on pity party. I guess that’s a bit of an improvement – at least the washer repairman who is coming this afternoon is safer. I stared intently at the picture on the wall and started to focus on my breathing more. Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out. Forcing stray thoughts away, I continued to breathe slowly and with intention, encouraging that breath to go right into my shoulder, breathing deeply and exhaling with purpose. Within a few minutes I felt lighter, my shoulder pain had diminished into the dull ache of an overworked, pulled muscle and I felt my arms rise over my head into a modified mountain pose. From there, I moved into half-moon and then onto five pointed start – or 3 pointed start as the case may be today. Suddenly, the realization came to me that I need not give up the daily practices that keep me sane, I need only modify them to suit my current situation. Who knew chair yoga could be so fulfilling. Okay family, it’s safe to come home now.
Today's view is from the back porch... a quick scan of the yard and my eyes settle on the tired and well-loved swing set. Every time I suggest passing it on to another family with young kids I'm met with that look of shock. A look that states, what could I possibly be thinking. I guess it's difficult to think about putting away one's childhood things.
The brisk, winter wind is encouraging the swings to dance on the end of their chains. If I close my eyes I can hear the high pitched voices of little ones playing. Laughing and giggling as they share a tea party in the treehouse. I remember asking them why they call it a treehouse since it's not in a tree, their response, "But Mummy it doesn't need to be, it's next to a tree, so it's a treehouse." Oh, good to know. I also remember in horror the sound of little Anna, at age two, falling backwards out of that treehouse. Her little body hit the ground with an enormous thud for such a tiny, little person. Thankfully, she was fine. Me, not so fine. This one is my daredevil, this one has fallen backwards down the basement stairs - not once, but twice. This one has knees that tell the story of a childhood filled with adventure and many boxes of Band-Aids!
This morning I sat on the front porch in my rocking chair looking at the beauty all around me. Yesterday's ice storm left the trees sparkling in the morning sunshine. The sound of crackling ice as the branches moved gently in the breeze made me think about how little time I actually spend looking and listening to all that's around me. Although my world seems pretty limited right now, I'm realizing that it's not really, it's just a different perspective than I'm used to.
Today marks three weeks since my silly accident which has me laid up and dependent upon my husband, kids and awesome friends. Who knew one could break four bones in one foot, fracture a knee, mess up both the ACL and MCL, and sprain the other ankle all from a standing fall. Turns out I have brittle bones – a lovely side effect from chemotherapy four years ago.
One would think I would be really mad, okay, I was at first, but only for a little while. Instead I realized that my fall was a blessing in disguise for several reasons. First of all, I am a very active person and given that I was supposed to be skiing in Stowe two weeks ago, I can't help but wonder how much worse a fall on the slopes would've been. Now that could've been really ugly. Instead, a simple fall in the bathroom... yes, the bathroom - which is the most dangerous room in the house - enlightened me to a very serious condition. I consider this a blessing because now that I know, I have begun working with my favorite herbalist, Kenyon Keily and my Functional M.D., Dr. Sarika Arora, to create a wonderful plan to rebuild my bone density (naturally of course!). It will take a couple of years to increase my bone density to safe, pre-chemo levels, but knowledge is power and I like knowing that I'm able to take control of this issue and remedy it without expensive injections of synthetic materials.
So that's the first blessing - pretty awesome stuff. The second blessing is what all this forced time off my feet has done for me... the ADHD girl who can't sit still! This last three weeks has been an incredible opportunity to just be with myself and do lots of soul searching. As a busy mother of five, there's not a lot of "me time" in my life and this last three weeks has been a gift of time to just think and ponder. Since my office is downstairs and I can't navigate stairs... I've given myself this time as a vacation from work-related responsibilities i.e. end of year accounting, inventory and boring business stuff that I really dislike anyway.
I've come to the realization that I'm feeling very burnt out and ineffective, struggling to juggle too many things and accomplishing little. I've been an integrative health coach for more than 20 years and have spent the last few years building a for-profit business and a non-profit business. Too much, too busy and I'm not happy. I've decided to streamline my life a bit, get back to what makes me happy. I've decided to limit my coaching practice to just a couple of clients at a time and to focus more on the non-profit business, Pay it Forward Club.org, which is something that gives me great joy. I've also decided to get back to writing. So I'm going to use this blog space as a way to flex my creative muscles and expand my writing... who knows where it might lead.
What a gorgeous day it is out today. Partly cloudy, temperature a comfortable 70+ degrees and just enough wind to keep those pesky mosquitoes at bay. I really didn’t want to come back inside, however, the tiny, little seed tick I found crawling up my leg sent me back to my desk in a hurry. I hate ticks. I hate that I have to be concerned about an insect that is no bigger than a spec of dirt.
Every day we hear and read about Lyme Disease, caused by a bacterium (spirochete) called Borrelia burgdorferi, which is transmitted through the bite of Black Legged and Deer ticks. It certainly seems like everyone knows someone who has had Lyme or suffers from the nasty side effects of long-term chronic Lyme Disease. It clearly seems to be heading toward an epidemic of sorts if you ask me. According to the CDC (Centers for Disease Control and Prevention), Lyme Disease is one of the fastest-growing, vector-borne infections in the United States with over 329,000 new cases being diagnosed each year.
Ticks and Lyme have been around for thousands of years. Traces of the bacterium were even found in a 5,300-year-old mummy. However, it was only 130 years ago when a German physician, named Alfred Buchwald, made the connection between chronic skin rashes and bacteria transmitted by ticks. The condition was known as Erythema Migrans. In 1981, a scientist named Willy Burgdorfer discovered the bacterium (spirochete) carried by ticks was causing Lyme. Dr. Burgdorfer’s discovery was honored by the medical community in 1982 when the bacterium was classified as Borrelia burgdorferi.
Lyme, Connecticut in the early 70’s appears to be ground zero for the explosion of the Borrelia burgdorferi bacteria. There are some controversial stories that suggest that bacteria may have been accidentally released from the Plum Island Animal Disease Center via birds transmitting the disease to the mainland. Plum Island sits just a few miles off the coast of Lyme, Connecticut. Regardless of how it started, warmer winter temperatures make it easier for ticks to survive and multiply. Urban sprawl has decreased the numbers of natural predators that control the population of the tick-transporting rodents, like mice. The white-footed mouse is a carrier of the bacterium and is actually what infects ticks, the ticks then move animal, to animal infecting them.
We often think of deer when we think of ticks but the reality is mice, squirrels, chipmunks, birds and our pets are all more likely sources of the dreaded tick appearing in and around your home. What can you do to prevent the little buggers from invading your space? Some folks like to use chemical-based sprays and repellents, but if you’re like me – I prefer to avoid nasty chemicals if I can. There are lots of things you can do to protect your yard and family without resorting to dangerous chemicals that your children will absorb through their feet as they run barefoot across the lawn. Consider planting the following perennial plants around the foundation of your house and around the borders of your yard – especially where the wooded areas meet the lawn. Lavender (great for repelling ticks and also our oil of the month!), penny royal, pyrethrum (a type of chrysanthemum), sage, eucalyptus and mint. Products made with these and other natural plant oils are effective at repelling ticks, mosquitoes, gnats and pesky black flies.
Another tip to keep ticks in the woods and out of your yard is to create borders between your grass and your house and the grass and the edge of wooded areas. Using gravel or wood chips, create a border at least six inches wide (three feet is ideal) dividing your grass and woodland or your grass and your home. Ticks do not like to climb across uneven surfaces. The gravel and woodchips will discourage the nasty critters from attempting to travel into your yard or house. You can also saturate cotton with Permethrin and place the cotton in empty cardboard toilet paper rolls and paper towel rolls. Place these in wooded areas around the perimeter of your yard, tucked in among the leaves and low growing plants. Rodents will use the cotton as bedding in their nests. The permethrin will kill the ticks, thereby further reducing the population of the nasty blood suckers.
Birds are a wonderful way to decrease the tick population in your yard. Set out bird feeders and keep them stocked full of seed and suet from November through March and you’ll find that your feathery friends stick close to your yard. Your yard becomes their hunting ground in the Spring and Summer and even early Fall as they prey on ticks, mosquitoes, cabbage worms, whiteflies, aphids, earwigs, grasshoppers, cucumber beetles and grubs, to name a few. Our bluebirds live in our yard year-round as they’ve learned that my husband will make sure they’re fed all winter.
Another great way to reduce ticks is to adopt a flock of chickens. Free ranging your chickens often is a great way to keep your yard clear of ticks. They are amazingly thorough when it comes to finding even the tiniest of insects and will happily consume the insect protein and then produce the most amazing eggs. Now that’s a bonus. Spraying your yard with pesticide doesn’t yield such delicious rewards.
Other things you may want to consider is the very perimeter of your house. Keep your grass cut short and keep after the weeds - ticks love to hang out in tall grass and weedy areas. Do your shrubs grow up close or are they touching the house? Are there lots of dead leaves, weeds or dead grass near the base of your foundation? Ticks enjoy hanging out in these damp and cool locations as do mice. Hoe this area out and cover the earth three or four inches deep with wood chips – cedar chips work especially well as the scent is also a deterrent. Plant mint, garlic or catnip near the base of your foundation where leaves and debris gather each Spring. The smell will keep critters of all sizes from building a nest near your foundation. However, if you plant catnip, you can expect the neighborhood cats will flock to your foundation. As an added bonus – cats also eat mice!
When spending time in the great outdoors, be tick smart and wear light colored clothing with long sleeves. Tuck your pants legs into your socks to help deter the little climbers and use a good bug repellent. I spray my clothing and hat as well as any uncovered skin with a bug repellent made from plant essential oils. Look for a bug repellent that contains lots of lemongrass, cedarwood, citronella and lavender. Ticks and many other annoying pests despise the scent of these oils and will steer clear of it. Smearing a natural bug repellent on your skin is a great way to stay tick free while not absorbing dangerous chemicals like Deet. Check out the new bug repellent, Tick Tamer, by Enchanted Essentials. It’s made with a combination of powerful essential oils that will help keep those pesky insects from biting you.
Checking your entire body (and your kids if you have them) for ticks every day is a must in order to help prevent tick borne illnesses. If you find a tick that has attached (bitten), use tweezers or a tick tool to remove the insect. Try to scoop the tick underneath and from the back going toward the head. Twist and pull upward to extract both the main body and the top of the tick. Often folks refer to this as its head, but ticks really don’t have heads. They are bodies with pincers and an appendage called a barbed tube. It’s the barbed tube that is what becomes embedded in your skin and it is through this tube that the tick transfers the bacteria. Be sure to remove this when extracting the tick. Do not squeeze it, pinch it or use soap or other remedies to try and make the tick back out. It will more than likely just vomit causing even more of the bacteria to be released into your body. The best method is the sneak attach with a swift upward twist.
It’s recommended that you keep the tick for six months or so. Tape the tick to an index card and write the date and location of tick bite and geographical area. In the event that you develop symptoms of Lyme or other tick borne illness, the tick can be tested to determine which bacteria is present. Pay attention to your body and if you have any symptoms or begin feeling fatigued get tested as soon as possible. Early detection can make a huge difference. Watch for symptoms such as fatigue, cognitive impairment, joint and/or muscle pain, poor sleep and/or insomnia. Many Lyme symptoms overlap those of other chronic ailments such as fibromyalgia, rheumatoid arthritis, multiple sclerosis, Parkinson’s disease, ALS, depression and Alzheimer’s disease. Often patients are misdiagnosed with one of these ailments when in fact it’s actually Lyme disease. My rule of thumb is when in doubt, test for Lyme.
Early detection and treatment with at least a six-week course of doxycycline is the current, conventional treatment for Lyme. This has been shown to be very effective when the disease is diagnosed early. Late detection is also treated with antibiotics, but often it is a much longer course of treatment which can wreak havoc on the body. There are many integrative practitioners that are using a variety of techniques to help clear both early detection and chronic Lyme. If you are interested in finding out more about this, please email me and I would be happy to suggest a few practitioners. Lyme disease is a scary disease as it is often hard to detect as the symptoms vary so much from person to person.
Be vigilant, check yourself and your family (including the four legged children!) every day and pray for a really cold winter this year to help kill off some of the population.
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